Protection for less democracy, who agreed on this?

Where was I when an officer has the right to tell you to shut up, abuse his power then kick you out of a public place for giving info, just because he said not one more word!!! Who the hell do these men think they are once that uniform goes on? Oh yeah try calling on them too, " did you say something else" I said " Yes the date they couldn't find" and he backed him with " well he told you not to speak". Are you kidding me it was regarding the situation and this BMV on Hamilton ave in Cincinnati ohio, had no idea what was going or where to find anything. I put that in there so if you were stuck in a bad situation and needed something complicated taken care of, don't go there. Bubba has nothing to do but harrass and the staff " don't get an attitude with me maam, ", of course you can say what you want you work for the state, if you didn't I would take my bull whip and wrap it around your neck you and bubba gump. Back to abuse of power, if the cop had a problem he could have been calm, approached me and communicated himself responsibly, the staff too. It was an awful experience, I don't like the men in blue to think they have power over me, like Im in prison, I know people have issues at the bmv, but no weapons were shown, I wasnt waiving my hands or yelling at her.  We don't live in China or any other country where we have to be quiet when they enter the room, our officers are people just like us, and they are here to protect us, not to harm us, insult, or insight panic, which he was considering how close he stood to me. I know they have a job that is of high risk, but they chose it and that has nothing to do with me.

Enjoy what you got.....

Last night I had an old lady friend call, she wanted to stop by after dinner with her mother.  I told her to text me when she was on her way, and that was that. A couple hours later, It came to me I am seeing someone, and I might want to run this by her and see what to do. My relationship is not ordinary, she is married, so she has someone she goes home to. I know it's not the best situation but its what Im in, it just happen, so back to last night, I haven't slept with anyone, since our relationship began and my lady friend has been so busy I haven't seen her since this all evolved either. At first I felt as though I was cheating, like I shouldn't be with anyone else because we have this intense relationship with such emotions, and love that we share, but then I did realize she does go home to someone else too, and thats when I spoke to her and said is this relationship open? I said you love me and you love your husband, so we have an open relationship. I didn't think she liked that perspective, nor the fact that my lady friend was coming over, but she did say it wasn't fair that she gets to go home to someone and Im alone. As my lady friend pulls up I could barely get her off the phone as she walks thru the door, it was goodbye and hello to her. I thought I would feel awkward, but it was like were it left off, and we did enjoy each others company, no details needed. What I will say is, living in the moment and taking care of yourself is a good thing. I know the person I am seeing is not going to divorce, so I will enjoy what we have, and I will enjoy what I have too. See many get into situations like this and then they want that person to divorce, you have no control, and can't do that, you have to accept what your in, but you can enjoy yourself too. I love that girl Im seeing and it does suck that she happens to be married, I can't help where my heart went, but I can make do of a situation. So I have my lady friends and enjoy myself, life is too short to be upset about a situation you have no power over.

Phifel!!

Unwanted guests we all have them, so I gently escorted mine away and I thought I was done with him. Had I been aggressive that would have been the case, but no I actually provided him with shelter and food without my knowledge, till one day I see his big ass crawl across my patio, yes my guest was a small field mouse now he is a big ass rat!! Now living on my patio, eating what I feed the squirrels. See I caught him in a cup, and I didn't want to throw him three stories to the ground, so I just set him down, outside the patio, thinking he would crawl away. OMG no, he has hid from me but slowly grew into a big ass monster, what did I do!!!!! Sometimes you have to be aggressive with unwanted guests whether it be Phifel, or people in general, cause they will hang around unless you throw them out, his case literally, but in life, hey your on your own, support I can be there for you, but you can't stay here. I can't believe I made a moral point out of my rat story but it's true now my squirrels have to suffer until I get rid of that rat, I can't feed him any more, he will be the size of a cat, plus he really needs to be thrown out this time.

In Position?

Ever had a job, that hired you for a specific position, in charge of a department where you were to make the calls, and your ideas are what they hired you for? Ok, follow me, now you get in there, you are the shot caller of this department, but there is a boss of the overall department, and he seems to keep getting in your business, until the point you are no longer running the department. You are just a figure head, he makes calls and sometimes you can make some calls but everybody else now seems to be in control, and your just standing there? Welcome to the Cincinnati Bengals, and you would be the new Offensive Coordinator Jay Gruden!!!!!   See you have stubborn Coach who forgets that he is a Defensive Coordinator by trade and has no business making calls, but seems to think that his simple minded insistence on the run can't be read by other D.C. well Dick Le Beau smashed that last  week in the second half, so when will he get it thru his head unless he is willing to invest in pro bowlers as linemen besides whitworth that wont work!!!!! Also you have eager hands ready to catch and many plays in those books you carry around let Jay practice with thosse boys so they  can become familiar with them instead of saying ok no huddle and them no be ready cause they don't practice that as much as that damn run which we dont have the protection for!!!!!!! Play action, flea flicker, slant, shovel, something but screw the run until we need it at 3rd and 3 or somethng like that damn!!!!! Palmer went thru this shit, why now Andy, no someone has to stop Marvin!!!!!

I can't help it....

 When your in a relationship that's taboo, should you recoil like a hot flame? No it was a burning desire that I ran to, now its overwhelming love I can't get enough of. This is a not a social relationship, we are always at my house, we meet before she goes to work or when she gets off. Never has she spent the night, or have we went to dinner together.
    This is my relationship, intense passion, exploring love that I have never felt before, doing things like locking each other in positions and laying there for long periods of time. Now yes as great as that sounds, and it is believe me, I worry because at any time we might have to end what we have, or will we get sick of it? Right now I would there is no way I could ever sick of looking in those fawn like eyes, but when we are in my house all the time it might happen. Livin on love only can only last for so long right? We do need to get out, I am afraid when I take her out to a park, I will want to  be all over her, but that would be a safe spot to get out for us to enjoy an environment besides my four walls. Yesterday was a simple argument, and as I tried to get off the bed, she was shaking, crying and saying she didn't want to lose me. I went back to hold her and I started to cry, like she transferred her emotions on me. Its always the taboo, the relationships that are not suppose to be that are so intense, damn!!! Now what do you do, your in deep, that was some emotions already shared between the both of us, and if anything extreme happens its gonna us both!!!  The heart has a mind of its own if you open it, and thats what we did!!!

out of the box!

when you are like me, who only knows to be herself it can be considered being "out of the box".  Comprimising your personality, and being part of the background, seems to be the norm these days. "go with the flow, not against the grain", now we use woodshop tips for wisdom.  I am honest, sometimes I even feel like Biden, laughing*.  I don't want to change who I am, but I have made myself more subtle, being heard by everyone is not my goal, and what I want to say also can be shared where I am, not to the entire floor, for I have a voice that carries well, so I have been told. Making adjustments is one thing, but I in no way, do not want to lose the essense of me. So where can a comprimise be made? I thought about it, but I also think about this one journey we have, and why would I want to live for anyone else but myself, I would be afraid of regrets.

Explore my open doors: Girls......

Explore my open doors: Girls......: Lips, hips, fingertips,  thighs, eyes, oh my! yes it's true, a woman can have a hold on you.  Those breasts call to me, saying " Michele don...