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Explore my open doors

Explore my open doors

In their hands!!!!!

We fight for all to have health care,  but those who have special needs and less than insurance beware!!!!!!  In my 3 1/2 years in the Health alliance care, my Primary care doctor, prevented my diagnosis of fibromyalgia. Even with a RA factor constant pain reported to him, his response was " are you on your period" or " you might need another anti depressant, your not emotionally stable". My dermatologist ignored my bloodwork while I was on acutane, and fortunally we had a argument, because at that time, my liver was effected and other things on my chart were too high. I did have concerns so throughout being on the drug, I would ask him about my bloodwork, and he ignored me or said your fine. Now I have permanant damage over that with my digestion, all due to him ignoring me, what I had to say what not of importance. Finally is their dental Center, By the way this is The University of Cincinnati, the world known heart center, the teaching hospital, yeah well, your not focusing on the patients like me in my situation. I had to put that in there. Ok the dental center, I had partial plate they were to form and then send out to make. Well they have residents and a dentist then a head dentist. I get a dentist who refuses to listen, the right side was too long in the back, too many times I told her, " im biting down and other side is rising up." I dont know what Im talking about, because she says this is needed and thats how my mouth is formed. " are you crazy its my mouth, if I bite down and one side goes up, how in the hell dont I know, common sense". I asked for a dentist, he came in touched where it should be, then left. She went back to her old way and guess what it was sent out with a big dip on the right side. I came back a month later couldn't take it, so I get her again and she says " I can sand it down" so that works for awhile. 6 months later it was a mess lost the hook that latches on the tooth and loose everywhere. I explained what happened, and another resident says "your gums might have shrunk, but really we can only fix the clamp" This piece of crap was moving all over the place, and these people were great for covering for each other, damn!!! getting to the point it came back, I was biting on metal and the hook was not even around my tooth. The back was loose as hell, so I called for who was in charge, and the manager came. She defended them too waived her hands at me, to lower my voice, patronizing me, I told her this was how I spoke and I need someone to help me, this is ridiculous. She walked out, I thought she was coming back, but no I had to call patient relations to get some help, and let them know what was  going on. Then finally the Dentist came, and this blows my mind, he didn't see anything wrong, " with partials I have had clients put them in their shelves and not even use them." Are you kidding me, I was blown away, a few more were exchanged, then finally his response to me is " well we can reinburse your insurance, take the plate and you can go elsewhere but there is nothing we can do" I was finished with at that point. I will add he did say he would tighten the clamp, but that was not a solution and I was not willing to give it to him after the shelf comment. I fixed them actually and they do fit better, you can do things on your own. As far as anyone being held responsible for their actions, good luck, the dentists is above all, patient relations was a joke, they did no advocation for me what so ever!!!! So I asked who is above all this and she wanted to give me an email, no thanks a phone #.  You must advocate for yourself I swear, you put your body the only thing you have and your life  in their hands. Be careful who that is, and where you go!!!!!

Protection for less democracy, who agreed on this?

Where was I when an officer has the right to tell you to shut up, abuse his power then kick you out of a public place for giving info, just because he said not one more word!!! Who the hell do these men think they are once that uniform goes on? Oh yeah try calling on them too, " did you say something else" I said " Yes the date they couldn't find" and he backed him with " well he told you not to speak". Are you kidding me it was regarding the situation and this BMV on Hamilton ave in Cincinnati ohio, had no idea what was going or where to find anything. I put that in there so if you were stuck in a bad situation and needed something complicated taken care of, don't go there. Bubba has nothing to do but harrass and the staff " don't get an attitude with me maam, ", of course you can say what you want you work for the state, if you didn't I would take my bull whip and wrap it around your neck you and bubba gump. Back to abuse of power, if the cop had a problem he could have been calm, approached me and communicated himself responsibly, the staff too. It was an awful experience, I don't like the men in blue to think they have power over me, like Im in prison, I know people have issues at the bmv, but no weapons were shown, I wasnt waiving my hands or yelling at her.  We don't live in China or any other country where we have to be quiet when they enter the room, our officers are people just like us, and they are here to protect us, not to harm us, insult, or insight panic, which he was considering how close he stood to me. I know they have a job that is of high risk, but they chose it and that has nothing to do with me.

Enjoy what you got.....

Last night I had an old lady friend call, she wanted to stop by after dinner with her mother.  I told her to text me when she was on her way, and that was that. A couple hours later, It came to me I am seeing someone, and I might want to run this by her and see what to do. My relationship is not ordinary, she is married, so she has someone she goes home to. I know it's not the best situation but its what Im in, it just happen, so back to last night, I haven't slept with anyone, since our relationship began and my lady friend has been so busy I haven't seen her since this all evolved either. At first I felt as though I was cheating, like I shouldn't be with anyone else because we have this intense relationship with such emotions, and love that we share, but then I did realize she does go home to someone else too, and thats when I spoke to her and said is this relationship open? I said you love me and you love your husband, so we have an open relationship. I didn't think she liked that perspective, nor the fact that my lady friend was coming over, but she did say it wasn't fair that she gets to go home to someone and Im alone. As my lady friend pulls up I could barely get her off the phone as she walks thru the door, it was goodbye and hello to her. I thought I would feel awkward, but it was like were it left off, and we did enjoy each others company, no details needed. What I will say is, living in the moment and taking care of yourself is a good thing. I know the person I am seeing is not going to divorce, so I will enjoy what we have, and I will enjoy what I have too. See many get into situations like this and then they want that person to divorce, you have no control, and can't do that, you have to accept what your in, but you can enjoy yourself too. I love that girl Im seeing and it does suck that she happens to be married, I can't help where my heart went, but I can make do of a situation. So I have my lady friends and enjoy myself, life is too short to be upset about a situation you have no power over.

Phifel!!

Unwanted guests we all have them, so I gently escorted mine away and I thought I was done with him. Had I been aggressive that would have been the case, but no I actually provided him with shelter and food without my knowledge, till one day I see his big ass crawl across my patio, yes my guest was a small field mouse now he is a big ass rat!! Now living on my patio, eating what I feed the squirrels. See I caught him in a cup, and I didn't want to throw him three stories to the ground, so I just set him down, outside the patio, thinking he would crawl away. OMG no, he has hid from me but slowly grew into a big ass monster, what did I do!!!!! Sometimes you have to be aggressive with unwanted guests whether it be Phifel, or people in general, cause they will hang around unless you throw them out, his case literally, but in life, hey your on your own, support I can be there for you, but you can't stay here. I can't believe I made a moral point out of my rat story but it's true now my squirrels have to suffer until I get rid of that rat, I can't feed him any more, he will be the size of a cat, plus he really needs to be thrown out this time.

In Position?

Ever had a job, that hired you for a specific position, in charge of a department where you were to make the calls, and your ideas are what they hired you for? Ok, follow me, now you get in there, you are the shot caller of this department, but there is a boss of the overall department, and he seems to keep getting in your business, until the point you are no longer running the department. You are just a figure head, he makes calls and sometimes you can make some calls but everybody else now seems to be in control, and your just standing there? Welcome to the Cincinnati Bengals, and you would be the new Offensive Coordinator Jay Gruden!!!!!   See you have stubborn Coach who forgets that he is a Defensive Coordinator by trade and has no business making calls, but seems to think that his simple minded insistence on the run can't be read by other D.C. well Dick Le Beau smashed that last  week in the second half, so when will he get it thru his head unless he is willing to invest in pro bowlers as linemen besides whitworth that wont work!!!!! Also you have eager hands ready to catch and many plays in those books you carry around let Jay practice with thosse boys so they  can become familiar with them instead of saying ok no huddle and them no be ready cause they don't practice that as much as that damn run which we dont have the protection for!!!!!!! Play action, flea flicker, slant, shovel, something but screw the run until we need it at 3rd and 3 or somethng like that damn!!!!! Palmer went thru this shit, why now Andy, no someone has to stop Marvin!!!!!